January 6, 2012, day 46

Well... neither one one of us is great, but neither is awful either.  But...  I have to tell you all..  I've had an AWFUL week.  I've already discussed the job situation.  But I came home Friday morning and had an okay day, but if you ask my husband, and I will thoroughly agree with him, I had been acting "off" for a couple days.  But Friday night, I SNAPPED!  I know that it was a combination if the stress and the birth control pill, which I've had minor issues with before.  Well... this was by NO MEANS minor.  I went on total freak out. I was cussing, screaming, hitting walls (I have a bruise on my brow bone that I really have no idea how I got it, but it was from that night), holing up in a room...  in a ball...  chewing my nails...  in a very defensive stance.  It was NOT pretty. But, on the bright side, some stuff that had been weighing heavily on my for a few weeks got taken off my chest.  Funny thing about all of this, to some degree, was that we were working out that morning and I was reading my sheet for the birth control pills about the side effects.  I was worried about the migraines I was having, told Curt to make me call the doctor if I had one in the next day or two.  I also noticed I had what they called "breast tenderness."  Then I read through the rest, glanced at the part about the mood swings and depression.  It came full circle for me less than 12 hours and thank goodness, I recognized it, mentioned it to Curt ad he popped all my pills and I haven't had a problem since.  Except my period started over a week early.